In Christmas Spirit!

Lol, I can't wait until tomorrow.

No, I'm really laughing this time because of how jolly I am. xD

But today has been going sooooo slow.

And tomorrow will go so much slower because of how excited I'll be!

I also have to go to church at like, 9:00 p.m. and even acolyte (sp?), maybe even sing a bit too.

But still, tomorrow is going to be awesome possum!

I just have to figure out how to waste time until 4:30.

Oh, and I've been listening to this song from the Colbert Christmas: The Greatest Gift of All like, 5 times in a row. Because there was a free song and I had to nab it because I love the Colbert Report.

If you don't know who he is or what his show is about, google it or something. :\

Well, adios!

-Jen

Just A Couple of Updates

• 10,540 words for my story. I haven't really gotten to it lately. But really, it's only 1/5th of the story, but still!
• Christmas Break is finally here. Yessss. My friends at church (in Ogden) get out for like, only a week. Lol, I feel bad for them.
• 4 more days until Christmas. YES.
• I have no idea what I'm going to do for the next 2 days, really. :\

Well that is all I can think of.

-Jen

I'm writing a new story!

Yes, I'm trying to write 2,000-3000 words a day.

I know that Olive already did this for NaNoWriMo (Did I get that right?) but I just felt like doing this because I wanted to get a story done for once.

So far, I have 6,754 words* and I've been working on this for 2 days, starting Friday. Yesterday I had about 2,083 words so I think I'm getting ahead. It's only 12 pages so far, but when I put it on Read Mode on Microsoft word it's 26 pages, which sounds better to me.

So I have until I finish it or until I have like, 100 pages. Oh boy.

Oh, and there are only 12 days until Christmas! Yayyyyy.

*This afternoon it was 5,543 words.

-Jen

I Write Like A Girl In My Blogs.

That's right.

I do.

But when I write poetry I write like a guy?

Wtf is that all about?

Wanna find out about if you're feminine or masculine when it comes to fiction, non-fiction, or just a blog entry? Well then, it you're that bored, click here! :D

http://bookblog.net/gender/genie.php

Also, I still hate school.

Had a big argument with my mom today about how I wish she would just leave me alone for once and just stop talking about school.

It's getting annoying.

I have to stop the Top 10 lists, btw.

I mean, just for the while. Because I have...a life now. :c

-Jen

School Has Turned Me Into a Zombie.

You heard me right.

I have only 3 words to say to you today.

I. HATE. SCHOOL.

(Before I say it, sorry to those who hate swearing. I try to keep it ver moderate and stuff, and I will beg for forgiveness after this one.)

IT CAN GO TO FUCKING HELL FOR ALL I CARE.

That is all.

Still happy about that drum set, by the way.

Almost broke the Top Hat (one of the cymbals that comes with the drum set) today though. Kind of hard to fix. :/

And self-esteem issues are coming back up.

Leading me to begin a new composition notebook full of poems.

NO, NOT EMO POEMS, DARNIT.

I don't like writing about how much I hate my life and how I want to die, ok?!

That's just stupid.

-Jen

Guess What!?

Ok, don't really guess. It'll just waste time.

But I got a surprise when I got home today!

Turns out my mom got us a drum set.

Just out of the blue for 250 bucks or something.

It's such a pretty color too! Red!

Ahhh, I'm in love with it.

Actually, after this I was going to go back downstairs and play it.

Maybe.

I'm actually getting tired and I still have English homework to do...and art homework.

Also, today I went shopping for a christmas project today where we buy kids Christmas presents. It was pretty fun.

Even if we had to go to that cursed Redneck place they call...Wal-Mart.

*shivers* I hate that place. Target is better. xD

Also, there is a war going on between the Sara(h)s.

And there might be a group blog about it.

Olive, we must get to this at once!

No Top 10 list today, by the way. Too tired.

-Jen

My Youtube Videos

So I actually did something today besides going to my grandma's hosue and being forced to wash dishes and help clean my grandma's car by washing her windows (long story).

I made an animated video on Youtube today!

Now I have 8 videos!

If you would like to see these stupid creations, here's my account.

http://www.youtube.com/user/CatDemonJen

SHUT UP ABOUT THE USERNAME.

I CAN'T GET IT CHANGED, ALRIGHT?!

Well, I got to go now.

Sorry I couldn't put a lot today.

Hope you get a chance to see at least my new video. : D

-Jen

Artistically Challenged

Ah, it's finally here.

After waiting for so long, IT IS NOT TIME FOR THE WEEK OFF.

Yesss.

Goodbye stress for a while, hello to sleep!

And also, it will be a time where I think I can actually continue one of my writing projects or at least get some time to draw.

Pretty much these past weeks I've been doodling only Alice in Wonderland pictures.

Because I saw the Disney movie of it and I loved it. And I can only draw Alice.

I wish I looked like her...she's so pretty. Super jealous. ;_;

Speaking of. Pretty.

Ah--never mind. If I said anything OLIVE would sure punch me.

Hard.

Well, until I can think up of anything else to say, that is all.

And now for my top 10 list of...hmm...favorite things. About. Myself? As in appearance and stuff. Like. First impression things?

Whatever. It's the first thing that came to my head.

10. my feet

9. my fingers

8. my lips

(...ok, don't go there now)

7. my name

6. my facial expressions

5. my natural hair color

4. my hair

3. my eyes

2. my mind

1. my glasses.

SHUT UP. I LOVE MY GLASSES.

And no, I do not love my personality.

AT ALL.

That is all.

-Jen

ONE DAY MORE.

It's kind of fun to do the impossible. - Walt Disney (1901-1966)

Sorry, had to put my favorite quote in here today.

I saw this in my quote gadget when I logged on and so I had to share it with you all. :D

Anyway.

So tomorrow, for school, I have to...

1. Name States and Capitols in the US

(Impossible.)

2. Memorize a Poem

(Impossible)

3. Memorize some Verbs

(probable)

4. Find another sewing project.

...Again.

(IMPOSSIBLE.)

5. Find a way to pass my math test.

(once again, IMPOSSIBLE.)

6. Finish my perspective art project thing.

7. Do some extra credit stuff in Art.

8. Finish Geometry Packet

(Have to do it over the Holiday. Unfortunately.)

Tomorrow's going to be a pain.

Well I say that all the time about school and life in general.

Is anytime NOT a pain when it comes to Jr. High?

Not like today's been rainbows and unicorns that take kidneys.

Pretty much all the Sarah's I know are revolting and being super bitchy to us

(sorry, let that one slip)

and I'm getting. Shorter.

I AM NOT SHORT. I AM NOT.

JUST CAUSE SARA LOOKS LIKE SHE'S--

Ok I'll stop.

But yeah. My feel goods have been hurt a lot today. :'(

But after tomorrow we shall be free!

FREE AT LAST, FREE AT LAST.

Free from the prison we are forced into!

Oh yeah. It's also kind of empty here, people.

0 comments. EVERYWHERE. D:

It would be nice to get a little attention, darlings.

Sorry, I'm sounding selfish.

And now, my top 10 list for the day...

TOP 10 of Jen's Favorite Foods

10. Milkshakes

(I DRINK YOUR MILKSHAKE. xD)

9. Burgers

(Not fast food burgers, like burgers my mom sometimes make)

8. Chicken Salad

7. Clementines

6. Ramen

5. Rice

4. Icing

(You know, just plain icing. Yummy)

3. Cupcakes

2. French Fries

1. Noodles

That will be all.

-Jen

Yessss.

It's the weekend.

FINALLY.

I think I'll start doing some art projects soon or try to learn guitar soon.

Hmm. It's gonna be hard. And procrastination will be an obstacle, as usual.

But then again I have LOADS of homework.

Or at least, LOADS of studing.

And I hate studying.

Also at school, all of my friends (well, most of them) were acting like drunks and looked like hobos (no, not you Olive Margarita!...she knows who she is.) because of the Twilight Premiere thing.

*Shivers*

It was like. Night of the Living Dead.

So that is all.

So let's get to my Top 10 list for this entry.

TOP 10 THINGS I LOVE AT THE MOMENT

10. The Mentalist

(Also currently in love with Simon Baker <3)

9. Soul Calibur 2

(Gamecube Game, yeah it's old. Which is why I wish we had more fighting games for the Wii or find some used ones at some game place.)

8. My camera

(Obsessed with taking pictures right now)

7. My awesome tie

(...Which I don't have right now because my brother took it from me. HE CALLED IT A MIDGET TIE. >:0)

6. Nintendo Gamecube

(When my brother has taken over the Wii, of course)

5. My Blog

(lol. It cures some boredm.)

4. My hate for Twilight

(which makes me an individual)

3. Dimlight (It's a video I saw making fun of Twilight. Hilarious. I just forgot where I saw it.)

2. The idea of Thanksgiving break (MORE SLEEP. POSSIBLE TIME TO HANG WITH SOME FRIENDS FOR ONCE?)

1. The weekend (yesssss.)

Well, hope you guys enjoy your weekend!

-Jen

HAHA.

Guess what, everybody?

Well...I know everyone knows this but I'm proud to say that.

I got 103 out of 110 on my Religion Test in Geography today!

Woohoo! Everyone else got like, in the 80/70/60's.

But that test was way too easy.

But that was the only happy part of the day.

I know, I'm negative.

Well, it's been another hellish week again.

So the week's been the same. I've been stressed, homework is coming from every direction, and I am still not going to get sleep this week.

But next week, we will finally have a few days off.

More on that when the time finally comes.

Also.

I decided just to spice things up, I'm going to have a top 10 list every journal entry.

I'm sure it's been done before, but hey. I will make it fun. >:0

TOP 10 THINGS I LEARNED TODAY.

10. When I write my name on assignments, sometimes my name looks like "jew" instead of "jen"

9. Top 10 lists are hard to make

8. Bird Watching is boring. Really.

7. I just might be the only non-Twilight fan in my school.

6. ...oh, and Twilight fans are everywhere. They are like ninjas. OH BTW THERE ARE 5 TWILIGHT FANS ON THIS PAGE. FIND THEM. (Not me, of course.) >:0

5. Babies are still thrown in dumpsters. OMGITSSAD. :c

4. I'm good at procrastinating.

3. I use emoticons a lot.

2. Not everybody from Utah actually likes Utah! Yay, I'm not alone! :D

1. I fail at life. :'c

Well, that is all.

-Jen

Attention Friends! :D

Sorry, I feel bad for doing another entry on the same day and for sounding like a attention seeker. But I forgot to add something and it would be better if I just did a seperate entry anyway.

If you know anyonewho I know who has a blog, would you let me know or ask them to add me?

I'd really like to see some other blogs and followers besides...um...two people?

But make sure if you tell me who they are that you make sure it's alright if I add them.

If that makes sense.

So just post a comment or something. I hope to see more of my friends on here soon.

Or at least some who are somewhat interested in my ramblings?

-Jen

Ears Plugged, Eyes Burning

Man I officially hate this day. I have a feeling the drama isn't going to end so soon. ;_;

First of all, I had to witness one of my neighbor's cat eat a bird.

Oh boy. That was fun.

I was just going out the door when I hear the bushes rumbling and I hear a loud "TWEET!" by the birdfeeder, and then I see a black and white cat running with something in it's mouth.

Fun.

Then I realize we have like, two tests tomorrow, one in English on Prepositions and a religion test in Geography but I think I can handle the Geography one just fine. It's just English that I might EPIC FAIL at. I also have an assignment in English that I still haven't finished. My english teacher doesn't explain anything for crap.

But anyway, so I'm going to have to stay up and not go to bed early like I wanted to tonight.

Then again, when do I get to go to sleep early?

Which is why I have a cup of coffee at hand with me. xD

Sorry, I like coffee. And coca-cola.

Then today, one one would listen to me. This girl (I can't really call her my friend, actually) thought I called her a guy's name and she won't even let me tell her the whole story and she's totally ignoring me like the little priss she is and won't even listen to me. I was this close to calling her something...rude.

Let's just say.

And then my mom totally flipped out on me today for the littlest things.

It's hard when your mom is being a priss and acting like an unstable hormonal teenager and she won't listen to you either.

Well, I also had to stand up for myself today. Twice.

This one girl told me to shut up, and I said to her, "I don't listen to people who tell me to shut up."

Or something like that. It was at lunch.

And then little Miss. She-thinks-I-called-her-a-guy's-name tried to push me.

I'm like, "You don't dare push me! I don't want you touching me!"

But here I am now, surrounding with people who's ears are plugged and my eyes are burning because I will not get the sleep I wish for.

Well, until next time...

-Jen

Whimsical Dreams

I love the word Whimsical. It's quite...whimsical.

Anyway.

Today is Saturday. Kind of a boring day except that I went shopping for jeans because two pairs of jeans got ripped. Those jeans I think were getting too small anyway. But I also found this comfy sweater and I love it. Makes me feel kind of cute. : D

Also, I played the Xbox for hmmm...3 hours?

And then played Animal Crossing for an hour. And then I'm here...making a Christmas List. In November.

Don't ask me why I am, my mom just told me to make one. And I'm bored and I love to look at Amazon.com and look at things I can't have. Sigh. I'm weird like that.

I also had this weird dream last night.

Oh, and if you didn't know, I am a big fan of the Who, classic rock in general. And I always have crazy dreams about the Who for some reason. Well, it's better then having crazy dreams about teachers like I did two years ago. Boy where those dreams weird.

(Hmmm, coming soon, a dream blog?)

But here was the thing. Roger Daltrey (lead singer) and Pete Townshend (guitarist) were staying at my house because they were on tour. And for some reason my house was uber clean, which would be a miracle if my house ever was THAT clean, and I was like their manager or something of the sort and they were like, my friends. Weird right?

So they have their concert by Cherry Hill in that front parking lot (people in Utah know what that is, actually...anyone who knows I have a blog knows where that is, lol.) and I'm watching by the funeral home that's by it. And then they end their tour and I rush back home because if I don't I would get in trouble? I don't know, it's a dream, ok?!

And so I pretend to sleep when they come back to the house, and my alarm clock rings like 5 seconds later, and so I go use the bathroom and there's this other girl and she's in the bathroom when I go in there and I start talking to her....and that was it. o_o

I think I will start a seperate dream blog. I think it would be cool.

Well, until next time, adios...well, I'm pretty much only talking to my one only follower. xD

-Jen

P.S.

So I tried looking for other people that have blogs in my area.

Funny story.

So I found this guy who I really hate. He doesn't really have a blog, he just signed up for one, I guess.

Then I found one of my friend's mom's blog.

Now that was hilarious.

Now I can't wait to tell her that her mom has a blog.

Maybe she would find it funny like I did?

Sometimes...

...I hate being different.

I hate being the antisocial person I am.

I hate being labeled nerd or whatever the hell they call me at that place they call...school. More like a prison if you ask me.

I hate the fact that I have lame clothes and interests and hobbies, and because of them am I judged by them instantly and people never really get to know me.

I hate the fact that I am quiet in class, always tired too so I don't look like the kind of person you want to talk to, but when I am myself I don't impress anybody. I don't even know HOW I got friends.

According to my friends, I have a bad personality. And I'm just not...fun. I guess.

And everytime I look at myself in the mirror I want to smash it, I don't care if my hand bleeds or if I break it. (Ew, that sounded too emo for me.) I wonder how I got the bad genes and then some from my mother and father. I wonder how I got to be this way.

This ugly...thing you call Jen.

I try my best, I really do, and I match my clothes, I try to smile every once in a while, although it's really hard to think positive when you're me, but I haven't reached their standards. What they think a cool, or even, what a person is. I am the outcast, just like most of my friends.

(No offense! I still love you guys.)

I wish that school went faster and I could just get myself out of here and move to England already (personal dream here, sorry) or that I could be smart enough to graduate early. Like, a super genius. I would love that...I think

But I'm not...never will be smart either!

So until then I have to try to live a normal life, keep a normal profile at school. But.

Even when I buy a single Aeropostale jacket and shirt, I am still laughed at. Pointed at. Spit upon. (metaphorically, of course)

I am still the ideal of some rumors that float around.

Like I'm lesbian.

Or something like that. I know that's a rumor because I notice how some people act towards me.

I am still the laughing stock to girls with boys at their heels and gobs of makeup on their face.

Some bitches tried to trip me in the hall today and I was this close to just punching them in the face, but instead I only muttered some swear words and moved on.

And I'm stupid. I am the can't do person. I don't see why I am getting C's and B's (hey, I do get A's though...which is a miracle) and struggling and for some people school just comes naturally and people are straight A students, teachers pets, and honor students. Sometimes I feel like I am autistic, not right in the brain. I sometimes have trouble concentrating sometimes, especially in Math. I feel stupid, unable to learn like those other kids who are praised for their high scores and all that shit. I feel most of the time I can't do anything, except write and draw...that's about it for me when other people have talents gushing out of their ears, know what I mean?

Well, before I get all emo and hated by everyone, I'm gonna stop. I hope.

That's just a summary of what I'm feeling right now because I feel like crap.

This week has been tiring. Actually, quite literally because I haven't got too much sleep these past days either, and all my friends have had problems going on, and now I caught the negative bug (worst figure of speech ever) and now I'm just depressed and stressed out. I'm sick of it. I'm just so freakin' sick of the drama! In fact, I'm just sick of this week!

Then again I'm a hypocrite. Because I'm making drama. Bawww. ;_;

But that's what school is all about when you're not trying to learn.

Sometimes it's just meant to be this way with a person like me, the square peg, they say. Sometimes there's gotta be one that only sees the glass half empty most of the time, but on those special moments when that someone feels cool and maybe even well...apart of this world and not too alone, that someone sees the glass half full, just for a while.

I guess that's all for now.

-Jen

Stressful Day is Stressful. ;_;

Well, I should be in bed by now but I thought since I skipped doing a entry yesterday I might as well sneak one in here before I head for bed.

Today was a stressful day.

School's been getting tougher for me, like Math and English.

I love English but I hate Math. Anyway.

So I had three pages of English homework and I STILL have to memorize a poem,

and then I had a math worksheet to do and I still don't get it.

Bawww. I suck at life. ;_;

Also, I suck at sewing. I have an F in there. SOMEONE TELL ME HOW YOU GET AN F IN SEWING?! Ugh.

Well, it's only the beginning of the 2nd term. If I get a F though in any class I'm screwed and I would be grounded for life or maybe even disowned by my parents.

Also, there's a lot of drama going on with my friends.

I don't really want to talk about it because it's personal and I shouldn't be getting into it. So I hope I don't get trapped in some problem that's not even my business like some of my friends have already done.

Oh! One more thing.

We learned about Hinduism today in Geography, since we're learning about religion.

I gotta say, I love the goddess Saraswatis.

But besides that, it's kind of strange to me since I'm a Christian and not familiar with these kind of ideas. Wait. That sounded wrong. I mean, I respect their religion, those who are Hindu I mean, but their ideas are really strange.

Although I think the Hindu mythology, like the Greek mythology, is very interesting.

Well, good night.

-Jen

Let Me Introduce Myself...

Hullo. This is my first post on here. If you didn't guess.

I realized that I signed up but I haven't posted anything at all, and my friend has a blog so I might as well make one myself. :>

I'm Jen.

I'm 14.

I'm Female. (Duh.)

I go to a Jr. High School, I'm in 9th grade, and I live in Farmington, Utah.

I hate it here.

Which leads me to say that I am a nerd at the school, when I'm not even a straight A student and I'm very quiet and self reserved, or at least that's what everyone else has labeled me as, a nerd I mean, but I prefer to just be Jen instead of nerd, thank you very much. And every day I am trapped in a room full of idiots and the big boss of the group, the teacher. Ah yes, I might not be academically smart but I least have some sense in my brain, know what I mean?

I have a small group of friends who I hang out with, but I'm not sure if I have any best of the best friends to name. I'm kind of a loner in my eyes, and I tend to do stuff alone and I like it that way.

But anyway, don't want to get too rant-y here.

With hobbies and stuff, I like to draw and write, and I love music. I'm trying to learn how to play guitar but I'm not doing too well on that. But anyway, that pretty much sums up a whole list of things I like. Oh, and I love manga! SHUT UP, I AM NOT A NERD. GET OVER YOURSELF.

And, I love video games. Especially DDR, Animal Crossing (yes, I still play that game, so get over it!), Rock Band, Guitar Hero, and fighting games like Super Smash Brothers Brawl and Street Fighter. You know, games like that.

I don't really know what else to say except I hope I can at least catch a few people's attention with my blog...thing.

And I hope I can entertain...if that's the right word, you all with my life! Maybe.

Well, until next time, I'll see you laters.

-Jen